My name is Lucy Molville, and here I catalogue my journey for better. I had a great childhood until I was hit with depression. Now I’ve found a hunger to reclaim my life. I’ve realized that I did a lot to pain myself and my relationships. I’ve burnt bridges in my life while I was all consumed in myself. I threw pity parties, inviting all I knew, and blasting all who came until finally it was just me, eating a cake of tears and pain, with no one to cut down on. No one to hate when I was tired of hating myself, when I was all-consumed with hate. No one to hate because I did it to myself, and I couldn’t possibly hate myself more.
I didn’t know that what I really craved then was empathy, compassion, love, and all that blah. But now I do. And now I will live differently. And it must be now, because I can’t take what was before any longer. This is my journey, my day-to-day. I know I will survive, mostly because I must survive. I will go back to the basics, relearn how to treat people right. Relearn everything. I will start anew, like a phoenix, emerging clean from the residue of my past burnt ashes, now bright, strong, and on fire. Bright, young, and new. This is my redemption story.